RESTARTS AT 55

RE-STARTS AT 55

Oct 8, 2020 | 0 comments

I know, I know.

5 years ago I started a blog called “Starts at 50”. Even registered my e-mail as startsat50@gmail.com, and still use it to this day.

My thinking then was this.

I had just been through the absolute worst year in my life, had lost everything at age 49, and then through getting sober and owning up to ALL that I had done bad in my life, things started to get better.

So basically I was starting over at 50.

Life kind of got in the way, lost our house, had to get a job working 7 days a week to help pay the bills at our new apartment….I stopped writing.

So why do I want to start again at 55?

Still sober, still working a recovery program, still working 6 days a week, but nowhere near the hours I had been, I realized that as far as I have come in the last 5 years, I have SO far still to go.

And I remember how writing had made me feel, and I want that again. So the only way that I can get better at writing…is to write…a lot!

Not sure which direction this blog is going to take me, but I am going to put that in my Higher Power’s hands, who I choose to call God, and see what happens.

Some things that have been on my mind as of late

  • I need to lose weight!

The other day while talking to my son, I realized just how selfish I was being in not trying to do more to get healthy. That he thinks about things like getting a call in the middle of the night telling him that I had a heart attack. Smacked me right between the eyes.

I know that I’ll never be able to wear a speedo at the beach, but I sure can lose a lot of weight and maybe extend my stay here on this pale blue dot we call earth. I weighed myself last week and, well, I am extremely obese. 390.4 pounds at 6’0″ is not good.

  • I need to help build up this business that Michelle is working so hard to start. It is a web design company. She is so good at building websites, and I really enjoy learning about Search Engine Optimization and Copywriting. Seems like a great fit for us. Time to stop talking and wondering and start doing.
  • Recovery. I have learned a lot, but I have so much more to learn and so much that I want to share with people that need and want to know. My first AA meeting was in 1987 when I was 22. Been through several rehabs, halfway houses and sober living houses yet, even after 10 years of sobriety, I decided that it was a good idea to pick up a drink. That started my spiral until March 13, 2014 when I found myself in a prison cell looking up at the ceiling asking for some kind of help.

I heard the voice of my father, who had passed away a couple years earlier, say to me “Son, I’m not there to bail you out and help you anymore, you need to get your shit together and it needs to start now”. A couple days later I was back at an AA meeting and got honest with myself, with my family and with the world. And things started getting better.

  • Politics/Current Events – I know, that’s all we need is another person chiming in on politics. My feelings right now are that I have stayed quiet and stayed away from forming my own voice for 55 years now, that is long enough!

I consider myself a Republican, one of the silent majority that just wants to be live a good, clean life and wants everyone to be able to have that. I don’t agree with everything other Republicans believe and I don’t disagree with everything that Democrats believe.

I believe what I believe and am open to listen and learn about opposing viewpoints.

  • Religion – I believe in God. I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe in the Holy Spirit.

But I also understand why people can get turned off by religion, by churches, even by the Bible. This is a very new topic that I am exploring and enjoy learning about and want to learn more and share what I am learning.

These are just some of the things that I plan to be writing and learning about on my blog, as time goes on I am sure stuff will change. Heck, just look at the world we live in and how fast things seem to be changing now!

Would love to know your thoughts and insights, for me that would be the best way to continue to learn and grow, even (re)starting at 55!